Blogging has been on my mind a lot lately. Not because I have anything extra significant I want to write, more so because it's a good way just to document the every day things. More of a reflection collection. Someday I think I'll really want to savor these days. Especially the days in this year to come.
A brief catch up.
My mom had surgery for a hip replacement, my dad had six months of chemo, my husband had medical school interviews, my dog started having seizures. Those are just the big things that stand out. It could have been a lot worse. It could have been a little less stressful too. All things considered, I'm thankful for each of those things. Honestly. My mom is walking without pain now. My dad was playing tennis, working and handling chemo really well. Tony did great in his interviews. Alex... well, I'm not thankful about any of that, but thankful she's handled them okay.
I'm back in school and made all A's through all of the above mentioned things. I thought that was a little bit of a feat; not the most difficult classes, but all things considered, it wasn't a walk in the park either.
Tony was accepted to medical school! Those six words hold a lot of emotion, years of hard work, tears, doubt, and commitment (for both of us individually and as a couple). We had a really fun little trip for interviews. Right before the trip we found out he was accepted to OU so it really eased the stress and made it 100 times more enjoyable. We've chosen to stay here in Oklahoma. It's the very best place for us right now.
Christmas was so nice. I've really learned to never take a single day for granted. Life is so fragile and never guaranteed. As our family (all 25ish of us) stood in a circle holding hands on Christmas to pray before we ate I took a moment to remind everyone how thankful we should be that we are all together. The doctors had said that if my dad hadn't had his surgery that he probably would have only lived about 6 months. That means he wouldn't have even been there for Christmas. Too much for my heart to take. Hold your loved ones tight.
I was anxious to ring in the new year- coining this year as "lucky 13". And, the year has been a lot of what none of us wanted it to be. January was rough.
I did have a really great birthday, though.
The day after my birthday could earn a trophy for being one of the crappiest days ever. We were in Tulsa. I woke up at 7 AM to Alex having a horrible seizure, actually two, and they were bad, scary, and really messy. Then, my mom, brother and I went with my dad to see the oncologist. Yeah, that's one of those experiences when you're sitting there and get really pissed off and sad that it's not just a bad dream you can wake yourself up from. We knew it wasn't going to be good, but it still really sucked. If "sucked" could even describe it. It's certainly a day I'll never forget.
We will not give up hope.
We definitely all have good days and bad days, but we are choosing joy and making it a point to make the very best of every day. We can't spend valuable time we have worrying and being upset. I started crying on the phone with my dad one night and he straight up told me, "You can't keep crying. I don't want you to cry. You'll be wasting good time if you keep crying." True. We must make the best of every moment. I make it a point to breathe in moments. Whether it's a holiday or a simple 5 minute phone call, I try to savor moments. I know that someday those little moments are going to be so very special to me- I just want to bottle up all these moments because I know that later on, 5 or 25 years from now, I'll give anything to have them again.
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